Heartbeat

Again it's happening! Not as bad as it was originally.

Just halfway there. It's just the one ear. 

It was all behind me. I was dizzy free. Walking confidently. 

Hiking. Dancing. Singing. Working. Living my dream.

I was even laughing. I felt it spiritually. 

Then it came to a halt abruptly. 

January 9th 2023. 

This condition might beat me. 

I can't DO this anymore. I want to quit.

Quit my job!

Quit my life!

But I won't...I can't leave. 

How will they know they are loved?

I'll keep getting up for them 

even though my world is swaying to the vibrations of the sounds all around.

I'll keep speaking with them 

even though it makes my head spin.

I'll keep living my life to the beat of my own heartbeat,

persistently piercing the silence of my inner ear,

for the sake of being near to those that I hold dear.

Ba Dum Ba Dum Ba Dum Ba Dum

Spin Spin Spin Spin

I will choose it everyday so they can be with me, and I can be with them.

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